I just want to do everything. I want to draw, paint, make game, groundbreaking apps, YouTube tutorials and play every instrument. Eventually it becomes clear that my time is just so limited. Trying to pour myself to thin caught up with me again.
I don’t enjoy failing to fallow through but I also don’t like to be afraid to give an honest try. So here is where I stand.
My plan to write a book is on the back burner now. It take so very long and I have so much to catch up on, when it comes to writing. I’ll have to try again another time. It’s like I read somewhere, “Sometimes you have to kill your darlings”. It’s time to start killing some of those darlings.
I’ll never be ready to write if I don’t practice at all. So, I want to start up on this and keep it going. It doesn’t take me too much to type something up and there are things I want to share that fit better here then anywhere else. I’d say it’s about 50% ego and the realization that getting what I want to say out, will only improve the more ways I do it. Daily is too much for me. Everyday I missed just made me less likely to pick it back up. So, this’ll have to be as often as I have something to say.
Trying to run 3 youtube channels was also way way too much. I am dropping or super slowing 2 of them. HelpMeNotSuck is still doing well enough to keep alive and I find it fun. Looking back at my old work it’s nice to see that I am getting better. That alone is enough to keep me going. Most of my videos average(with no advertising) around 30 views. If I post them, that turns in to about 200. I did have my first major success of over 57k views on a single video. Good god was that invigorating.
Awww man, I have turned in to one of those posters that has to give the, “I am sorry I stopped, but I am back”… but, I am sorry I stopped. I am back now 🙂